Photo by Lola Regard

Twisted anticipation

Another day

Another train

I wait patiently as my blood threatens to break arteries and veins

But it’s okay because right now it’s out of excitement

Loud silence

As I pace

As I ride the oncoming train

Wanted to fill my head with thoughts other than what’s occurred and what’s to come 

But it’s not my fault that they won’t be quiet

Great escape

From heavy lies

From broken plans

I’ll internally fight to let hope for a new opportunity win

But it’s difficult when the emotion kicks in

Backwards personality

Not just today

Not just me

Glad to let the worst part go, as I realize that it was once all I’d need

But it’s now only overwhelming memories

Hopeless fight

That’s bound to pass

That’s a matter of time 

Reminding myself it isn’t just me who has been left tossed away for someone else 

But it’s contradictory when my pain feels so lonely

Final reminder

For the future

For ongoing hope

I was able to leave behind a person who forgot the constellations once in my eyes

And it’s only going to improve here—I know this.